It’s been a while since I posted because I have been out and about
a great deal over the last few weeks visiting people who are very dear to me.
Since the end of February I’ve been to Altrincham, Stoke-on-Trent,
Stratford-upon-Avon and Oxford. It’s been fantastic.

I have been trying to live ‘in the moment’ as part of the
mindfulness mind-set I have been trying to adopt. I am making a conscious
effort to not dwell on the past and not worry about the future. This is rather
difficult because it is not my natural thought process. So much of who I am,
who we all are, is to do with what has come before us…and that’s good but we
don’t have to root ourselves there. We don’t choose where we come from but we
can try to adapt where we go from where we are now. The future, well, that’s
just scary isn’t it? As a natural organizer and planner it is hard for me not
to think about the future but I’m attempting to do so without attaching any
emotion to it.

I’ve been doing a lot of reading on Buddhism, Meditation and Mindfulness
all of which have helped with my anxiety and general low moods. Some days are
easier than others. That’s not a failure, it’s just life. Nothing is constant
and if we can go about observing ideas and feelings rather than buying into
them we’d all be a lot happier. Sometimes we just need to quieten the mind.

I received a text message this morning from someone I hadn’t heard
from in almost 6 years. My first thought was ‘what a lovely surprise, I wasn’t
expecting that.’ My second thought was ‘She must want something from me.’ Then
it occurred to me just how sad that second thought was and it was pretty
critical of both me and her, probably unfair. Sometimes the mind cannot just
‘be’ it has to overanalyse. Like an untrained dog you have to attempt to get
thoughts to heel so you can take a walk de-stressed as opposed to it causing
you anxiety.

I re-watched the
‘Perks of Being a wallflower’ film this weekend. It is based on a book by
Stephen Chbosky. As well as being interesting and moving, some of the lines
have a great deal of philosophy, so I urge you to check it out.

I hope this post helps someone to become a little
bit more mindful, a little bit more peaceful in your own self. Remember whoever
you are someone loves you and be true to yourself

Thanks for reading,